When in doubt, use song lyrics

Wow, I’ve been neglecting this thing haven’t I? So much for my brilliant plan to write in my blog everyday. Poor Dreamfall has also been neglected, despite my promises that I’d get to work on it once my laptop arrived. Truthfully, I’m not really that interested in writing right now. I get like this– every now and then I’ll lose interest in something I’ve previously done a lot of and I take a break that can be anywhere from three days to three months long. Right now I’ve got some stuff going on in my life that’s a lot more interesting than writing about vampires and whatnot, and I want to experience it. On the bright side, that’s one of the upsides of being young and mostly independent: I’m not really tied down to my writing yet. If I want to ignore it for a year, I can. There are no contracts to be fulfilled, no deadlines to deal with. In a way, success is almost scarier than failure, for that precise reason. I’m enjoying my freedom right now and I don’t plan to relenquish it anytime soon. That doesn’t mean I’m no longer interested in writing, of course, just that I’m going to enjoy what I’ve got while I’ve got it. Too many people become obsessed with moving on to that “next stage”, totally foregoing what they’ve got now, which is usually pretty good. I’ve learned–from work, of all places–that you’ve got to enjoy what you have now, while you can. The next stage will find you soon enough. Just be patient and you’ll get there. For me, my next stage will begin when I learn how to drive and get a car. It’s long overdue, and right now that is my final barrier to becoming truly independent. I’m smart enough to know overcoming that barrier will change my life completely. The changes will be small at first, but I know from experience that they get bigger fast. For instance, I want to travel to Vegas for my 21st birthday, and I hope to have my own place in the next three years. To do that I’ll have to go full time somewhere, either at my current job or a new one. (Starbuck’s looks nice.) Hopefully today’s horrible economy won’t prevent me from doing all of that…

Anyway, personal tangents aside, life is good right now. I’ve been at my job for almost a year, which makes me feel kinda strange. I think about all the friends I’ve made and then said goodbye to, how many people I’ve seen, (both customers and employees) how many people I’ve outlasted…I won’t lie. There are days when I miss my old friends so bad I want to scream. But at the same time I’ve learned the transitional nature of life, and that the ones who really matter will stay in touch. They will stay connected with you, even if it’s just an occasional text message or funny email. There’s some comfort in that. And it’s also interesting to watch relationships form between you and the other people “left behind”, as well as new people who come into your life. This is probably a lot more evident in a grocery store since by its very nature it’s a place of constant change, where as there are other jobs when you’re probably stuck staring at the same people for years on end. In a way I think that might be worse.

I didn’t expect to have the same job for so long, but I’m glad I stayed. It’s a rough place to work sometimes but overall the experience has been positive for me. It makes me stronger, physically and emotionally. I like that. And it’s definitely widened my view of the world and the people in it. Truth really is stranger than fiction.

Well, it’s late and I need some dinner. Sundays are always busy so I’m wiped. Good night, world. If you’re reading this, go poke somebody you love. If they ask you why, say a stranger online told you to do it, then see what their reaction is. *evil grin*

Oh and did I mention I ordered a bunch of kickass video games this week? XD Oh yes…